Simon's Journal

5:09AM

This is for the one that got away
You were ready but not in the same place
And what I felt was real, but confused
The actions of a child-the heart of an ancient

I encountered a love when I was still malleable
I would become the love to be the love you wanted
If only for a moment
In reflection, how could I become as hard as I was
To a possibility that now haunts at the edge of reality's merciless grace

I have not left from there
A year or twenty is no sacrifice to that moment
Living, as teeth into a lip of blood

The dullness of age has lead to a vicous love of your memory
Not something to be fucked with
Secret claws of toothless tigers

Enough to cover you in rum
A specific neurochemical configuration of propagation-longing-probabilities

In simple words, you created something in me,
that never went away
And forgive me if I think of you
every single day.

2:25PM

Hello everyone. How's everything? I'm programming for Verizon still and going to Vegas in a couple weeks. Anyone else play craps?

10:07PM - This is how we DO

The temptation to tweak my settings even further at work is strong, but must be resisted :D

2:44AM - I hate halloween.

That's it.

4:02AM

Thicker is the smoke...
In a morning where pictures are worth more than lives
Synthetic propositions, cards, dice and lovers
We can love on high, or hate premonitions, promotions
A ladder of oil paints, sleeping, slipping
Softly gasping, red steam, black plastic
Maybe I twisted into you, dragged across a Phrygian desert
Wind erases missteps here, combusting the outside chances
of sand singing, all is mission
All is collapsing and cascading into impossible now

10:29PM - Things are going well...

Wracked up a couple of misdimeanors in the past couple months, but I'm makin money and things are great. Wassup LJ? *crickets*, oh yeah, Myspace...

10:48PM

I got final confirmation for the job and I'll be moving to somewhere around the Lynwood/Marysville/Everett area.

4:58PM

Goaalll!!! I surprised myself last night by scoring a goal in top division soccer. In Sunday's game I got a great feed from Brian and one-touched it in... but this one, I was tangled up with their defender against the boards and I did a spin move to put me one-on-one with the keeper. I found the inside post and scored with a minute left in the game. We still lost because no one showed up really and we played a guy down for the first couple of minutes, but it was a great way to finish out the season for me!

9:21AM

Goaaaal!!! Since it was our last division 5 game last night I decided to play on the field as a forward. Definitely a different ball game with all that running around. The team wanted me to score and fed me some good passes, one of which I scored with! This whole going from a smokin' gamer to a well rounded lifestyle with exercise has been really good for me. Things keep getting better.

3:46PM

I got the job in Everett working for Verizon as a "fiber optic network support specialist." I had to pass three rounds of tests which went fine, but I know I didn't have all the details on my application that they wanted (I don't remember my address in China, and I have a far from perfect driving record), so I wasn't sure I'd get it until today.

I looked at my phone and knew instantly that I had gotten the job because of the weird area code. Strangely, I was riding in the car with my boss and he was talking to me about the last guy that left the company. Woot. Money. I think I may head down on Saturday to look for a new place. Or I'll commute. Or. Or...

3:55PM

Been a while since I updated here! Then again, I've never been known for my bloggin' consistency. The most important thing is, of course, that my house is throwing a big pre-halloween halloween party this Friday. The last one was great and I hope this one is as good. There will be keg-o-beer.

What have I been up to? As it's been a half a year now, I can safely say that I've quit all smoking. I'm also on three soccer teams! I played outdoor during summer and now I'm playing indoor at the Bellingham Sportsplex. Just like when I was a kid, I'm playing goalie. It's going really well, we win against all but the best teams in the city -- specifically, the WWU soccer guys kick our asses. I've signed on for 3 more teams after this season.

Living on High Street has been great for me except for missing my old roommates, and a lot of my old homies. I've also been playing a hell of a lot of Settlers.

9:25AM

2:45AM - party saturday night

Yeah that means you reading this, come!

1510 West North St.

Special invite to my homies in Skagit County :)

I'll be makin' strong Mohitos

3:11AM

500 years, and 500 billion people later
The human species figures itself out,
But we still peer into the microscope, to find
it is us looking back.

Extend yourself as a being of pure light,
Only to find that the one you loved, extended herself deeper, took matter and made it matter, turned to something far more beautiful.

We try so hard to escape the game, when we fought so hard to get here... The vistas and musings of nowhere's light, still only reflect the entity of experience, a longing--pure pleasure cannot kill it

Waiting, creating, solving, evolving, natural selection of friends' relative truths, not seeing it had the taste of reflection, an unfortunate voluntary participation in non-disclosure of calcified assumptions, yep, that same old deck of cards.
(to be continued)

1:29AM

New song,

Remembering You Who Were Never There

1:03PM

You may, of course, skip all this if you're not into electronic music. I don't really play any instruments, so I'm rather happy that I do have a tool that can get out some of the stuff in my head. Here's a list of the more or less finished, and the definitely not so finished:

Mostly Finished:
Eastern Mind
War
Unfinished (Until)
Blue
Cyborg
Distortion 3
Falling Asleep
Rock Me - Remix
Matrix Sunrise

Unfinished clips:

Hmmmmm....
Duelling Butt Rockers
Happy
Strings
Movie Test 1
Movie Test 2
Movie Test 3
Movie Test 4
Ambient

Clip 1
Clip 2
Clip 3
Clip 4
Clip 5
Clip 6
Clip 7
Clip 8
Clip 9
Clip 10
Clip 11
Clip 12
Clip 13
Clip 14

11:50AM

Strangely absent from the mainstream media is the text of the letter sent by Iran's president, Vasalam Ala Man Ataba’al hoda Mahmood Ahmadi-Nejad.

To further up the claims I made last year about the superbases, or, "embassy" I present this link.

Just more evidence to pile on top of the obvious assertion that we're there to stay.

9:35AM

Happy April 20th,

Birthday of Napoleon and Muhammad. Also the day McKinley requested a declaration of war on those damn Spaniards!

10:30AM

Last entry should have been named... HOLY NOSTALGIA BATMAN

2:53AM